“Show me where it hurts, God said, and every cell in my body burst into tears before His tender eyes.
He repaid me though for all my suffering in a way I never wanted:
The sun is now in homage to my face, because it knows I have seen God.
But that was not His payment.
The soul cannot describe His gift.
I just spoke about the sun like that because I like beautiful words, and because it is true:
Creation is in homage to us.”—Rabia
This hiatus will soon come to a close and I will again find myself pouring out my thoughts, reflections, and observations onto this digital archive.
Next destination: Amman, Jordan [along with other countries in the area}
Purpose: to learn, to experience, to grow
This study abroad is going to be a big step in my life. After I come back, I will be halfway done with my Junior year, wholly invested into my majors and academic goals, and starting ‘one shoe in’ towards my life goals.
I remember I wanted to live somewhere far from this land of suburbia before I went off to college. But now, after traveling a bit, seeing the world, spending some time elsewhere, I dig this place a lot.
Torrance is one of the largest industrial cities in California - home to an Exxon Mobil refinery, Honda, Toyota, and once upon a time Nissan as well. However, it’s also heavily residential - 5 public high schools, 8 middle schools, and many more elementary schools. It’s overall a very convenient place to live. I’ve come to love this place.
Still, I must say that my ties to this place don’t run so deeply merely because of the convenience it provides, or the fairly consistent weather. No. I would say it’s the people who live here. My family (the ones I had no choice in having as well as the ones I picked) makes this place home.
Every year I come back from BC, they grow (for the most part) and change, and I can witness all that has gone on in their life while I was away. It’s a sobering realization that life really moves at its own pace and will not wait for anyone. Still, I’m glad that it’s always moving forward for the people I love - to greater and bigger things.
These people are the ones that get me up and moving in the morning, the ones that I can spend countless hours doing nothing at all with, the ones that make one another angry, so that we all learn to forgive one another and enable each other to better love. These are the people I have come to call home.